It's not going to get better.

I feel like I just want to die. I can't take this pain. It's unbearable. I don't know if it would be this bad if I weren't pregnant. But losing my puppy along with these hormones is about to make me crazy. I'm so lost..I'm so sad. What am I going to do. I'm sitting in this empty, quiet house. I hate it. I hate it here now. I loved this house when we first moved in, but now I just despise it. I hate being here. This morning when I woke up, it just seemed like too much.