Why why why

Toby, I miss you so much. I don't what I'm going to do without you. God. I never thought anything like this would happen to you. I'm so sorry, Baby. I wish you were here with me, laying under the desk. I would even mind if you chewed up another bra. I just need you. I don't know what else to say. I just can't believe this is happening. I'm so sad. I'm sooooo soooo sad. My heart is broken. I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like I'm going to have a nervous break down. Please tell me this didn't happen..