another horrible morning.

Toby this is too much. I can't handle it. Why did you have to leave me? I couldn't sleep last night because I have so much on my mind. I feel like I'm dying. I miss you so much. I'm sorry I always repeat the same things, but it's all true. I'm depressed. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm angry. I have so many regrets. I hate this life right now. I hate it. Chandler was sitting in your spot under the desk a minute ago. I kept thinking that's Toby's spot. Toby's supposed to sit there. Toby's supposed to look up at me with his big brown eyes and wag his tail when I'm talking to him. OH God, I don't know what else to say. I'm hurting too bad.