day dreaming

Is it crazy that I still think you might come back? I know I'm just trying to hold on to some hope. The other day I couldn't stand to be inside any longer so I sat on the deck for the longest time. I was looking at the gate leading to the alley. You can see about an inch or 2 underneath. I kept imagining that I would see your gold paws. I kept imagining how estatically happy I would be. I wish that would, I wish that could happen. I love you, Toby.