my heart feels heavy

Toby, I miss you really bad right now. REally bad. I want you back. I want you back. I want you back. Why is that such an impossible request????? I'm starting to resent everything and everyone. I feel like if just one thing would of been different, you would still be here. I don't understand why you left me. I was looking on my camera the other day and you were in the last picture I took. I was trying to take a picture of my belly and there you were. I wish I could pull you out of the camera and have you back. I'm so sad without you.