tears and heartache

Days like this are so unbearable. Did I mention how much I hate the weekends? Yeah, I really really hate them. I feel so down. I took a nap this afternoon and when I woke up I felt so empty inside. I wanted to see you laying next to be on the bed. I wanted to be able to cuddle with you or at least touch you. It tears me up knowing that I will never see you again. That thought it almost too much to handle. Toby, if there is a way you can come back please do. I am losing it over here.